TwistedAlice90

I thought I would feel different I should be screaming from the rooftops, but I’m only whispering But I took the leap and took the risk I’m not the same person anymore I want more and deserve more Nothing feels the same but I don’t refuse to settle Greatness is what I want and through hard work I’ll achieve I got accepted into the next chapter of my life But something is wrong… I feel like stone

I try not to think about it Make myself busy so that I don't think about him It seems so impossible The pillow next to me seems so lonely, the spot empty I remember exactly how he looked in that spot, the way he smelled... his smile The way his hair would poof after a good nights laugh followed by slumber I felt whole with his hand in mine and now theres only air... I don't know what to do or how to feel Everything I do reminds me of him and I just don't want to breathe anymore Its not fair I'm here He's there After all the hard times we've both endured don't we deserve this? To achieve some happiness? Its been just over 24 hou

I wish I could tell him everything like I use too But its different now, been different for a while now I feel censored ever since its grown to a life commitment I'm scared he'll judge me, now no longer unbiased since becoming more then a friend He knows to much, has seen to much, he's under my skin I can't take it I'm scared he'll find out just how broken I am, the monster that I've become and what is worse, I'm scared that he'll blame himself for it But it isn't his fault, at all He did manage to save me, momentarily be my dark prince Now heavily broken I am lost among existence and have no idea where to go How can I go on if I d

You never see it coming Or know when to expect it to pop up The moment where you turn from logic to imaginary Its almost as if it sleeps among snowflakes Something so delicate you dare not touch it Breathing against the glass the fog reveals your creative identity Someone completely different then the person your peers see day to day Sometimes its a song, a dream, or even just a thought that occurs among day dreaming That specific moment in time when you go through metamorphasis Transforming from Brittany to a girl named Aria The other half of me, the reflection in the fog Someone that nobody knows Completely anonymous Non-exista

When I close my eyes and allow myself to drift I awaken once again in a strange place Everything is soft and colourful A place with no pain or worry The grassy fields welcome anyone a rest The flowers in the meadow glow with colours I have never seen before Imagination running wild No judgement, only comfort I can breathe once again, and let all the stress leave my tensed muscles I lie in the grass and think about new worlds, and the people that occupy them Becoming a little sad, wishing I could join them I'm a bird in a locked cage, my creativity suffocating My world crumbles when I am awake Everyday a piece of myself is chipped

Call me a lunatic, call me insane. Call me a freak show and stare. I know what I saw; it wasn't just a figment of my imagination. My name is Beth and I am in a mental institution as the result of an adventure I had 3 months ago. I know I was thrown into another world, down the rabbit hole. Now I know what my sister Alice was talking about, her rants and ravings were true. She wasn't insane; she was just as sane as me which at the moment doesn't seem to be saying much. I remember the first few days she came home; you could hear a pin drop from the deep silence that filled the house. Then after screams shattered the walls at night when her nig

Kissing Coffins I woke up in a coffin, that's were my story begins. One night, at the stroke of midnight I awoke in a warm coffin, lined with silk and warm padding. I crawled out, completely lost and oblivious to the new world I was tossed into. I left the old abandoned building, and wandered the streets that eventually became Manhattan. I don't know how I got there, or if I had been there before. All I knew was that I smelled something warm and fresh and that my body craved it. I wondered aimlessly for hours under the artificial lights. I realized I was wearing a blue plaid skirt with combat boots and a ripped band t-shirt that showed my tr